Hi friends and enemies,Β
Again im a bit late for this months dump but honestly im lucky to be alive and kicking right now so you'll have to excuse me for my tardiness (again).
Would you believe me if i said that love conquers all, because right now i dont know if i believe it myself.Β
This Cancer Alchemy hit me like a tonne of bricks, the themes of dissolution are not playing around this year atleast in my timeline and it shows in my attitude right now so excuse that too please.Β
I considered not writing anything just because of my pissy mood but then again you guys get all of me whether solicited or not...
Ill try my best to have hope that ill be optimistic about life again, since one thing to be certain of the law of rhythm is always in motion, things shift and change whether we like it or not...Β
If there is anything that can be guaranteed that is certainly one of them
So ill just try my best to take in the grimy surroundings for my interesting tales i will be telling my spiritual family one day... and theyll be like nooo way and ill be like yes yes i know... hold me plz.. and theyll say you were so brave to go in there to experience the fallen matrix first hand and rehabilitate it from within, we are so proud of you sweeet sweet sister/brother and ill shed tears and then all of a sudden all of this will be worth it!
sigh*
So for now i'll just hold my little found teddy bear just like this precious orphaned kangaroo and hop my way through this lonely snake ridden terrain. Dodging hunters, beating all odds and raising myself with gods help.Β
After all you cant play fire with fire for you turn into what you hate. I cant become them to beat them, i must do the opposite, which is refuse to play their game. It is the only way!
The very society, customs and structures we've known is unravelling at the seams, it is up to each and every one of us to find a way to replace what is dissolving at the speed of light... we must be lightning ourselves... faster, quicker and smarter than the light that is melting the false... we cant replace it with something worse.. or its another 26 thousand years of BS again... and being stuck in the wheel repeating the same lessons.. my head hurts just at the mere possibility... We must choose wisely.. and we choose in the absence of all... in the void the answers are born... so the void must be embraced and not feared so that when the time comes the wishes are crystal clearΒ
It may seem that what we truly want and need is not possible at all but through the act of choice, the catalyst that changes the very fabric of reality, we have a chance, the only one we do have.Β
The illusion looks real, the illusion is real. When you face it and you say you are not real. Then a way appears but a second at a time and only in time. This is frightening for there is no mental or ego control, no illusion of safety to lie to you everyday, you are safe, you are safe, you are safe... There is only the unknown, you must master feeling safe in the unknown.. you must have built enough trust with yourself to feel safe that you will make it where you want to go.. do you trust yourself? You did make it on this earth in a human body at the precipice of the ascension cycle, this is quite a feat in itself, this is your chance at real transformation dont bargain it away for a fleeting illusory sensation of proposed safety.Β
After all, all these things people rely to feel good or ecstatic about themselves, are so fleeting and at the end of the day no one really cares. Building your self worth on your ability to make others swoon with your talents, your aura or your money is just setting yourself up for a very sad future when you are guaranteed to not be able to do that. People on this earth take physical vitality and prowess, put it on a pedestal and worship it when its in fact the only thing you are guaranteed that you cant take with you when your spirit passes from this body you built. And if you dare re-prioritise and give all control to god then people see you as a crazy radical but also an uncaring slacker which honestly just shows their cognitive dissonance and their inability to process complex emotions outside of their frame zone, for those two images are quite contradictory to place on the same person or action.Β
It isnt ok for people to force their beliefs on you but you are completely within personal rights of the law of one when you choose to believe in gods power to take care of you without making deals with the invaders. Nobody has a right to tell you what to do or how to live your life as long as you arent intentionally hurting others, yes your decision might affect them, yes you might need their help, financially or otherwise and that is their choice to choose to help you or not. Dont be mad when they choose not to for they are within their rights even if they are stabbing their own heart to go through with it.Β Β
You are the captain of your ship, you only have to answer for yourself in your life review sitting across holy father. He is not going to say why didnt you sell your soul to work that soulless job that went against every value you had as a loving human being, he isnt going to say why didnt you compromise what was right to become a cog in the invaders machine even though it came at great personal comfort to you. But he is going to ask you why you didnt forgive those who didnt understand you, why didnt you fight for what you believed in, he is going to ask whether you helped those even when you didnt understand them.. He is going to ask why you withheld the love within you given to you so freely by the creator in the purpose to be shared as blessings for all.Β
He is not like any father you have known here, he is the husband and beloved son to the holy divine mother of god, he has been raised to understand and embody her perfected love... he is pure compassion... he is not punishment and servitude, he gave you the very body and universe you are and within... he is the creator and he is here to help you grow spiritually. Within the confines of personal power in service to others. Abolishing all power over others and service to self which his imposters spread maliciously on the earth.
When all is said and done you are only measured by the virtues you were able to express despite the hardships not to. Loving your enemy is a fundamental chapter in your ability to be granted cosmic citizenship. Many quotes by abdul-baha or bahaullah that i visit every time im being hurled unfair accusations and the dark projections of others around me that have nothing to do with me. Here is one such quote i clasp in my bloody hands in the middle of bone shattering storms:
"Wherefore must the loved ones of God associate in affectionate fellowship with stranger and friend alike, showing forth to all the utmost loving-kindness, disregarding the degree of their capacity, never asking whether they deserve to be loved. In every instance let the friends be considerate and infinitely kind. Let them never be defeated by the malice of the people, by their aggression and their hate, no matter how intense. If others hurl their darts against you, offer them milk and honey in return; if they poison your lives, sweeten their souls; if they injure you, teach them how to be comforted; if they inflict a wound upon you, be a balm to their sores; if they sting you, hold to their lips a refreshing cup."Β βAbduβl-BahΓ‘
I really enjoy these quotes left to us by Baha'u'llah and Abdul'Baha because we know they were tested on this, Baha'u'llah truly practiced what he preached. During his treacherous journeys he had many enemies that tried everything to destroy him and he really did never retaliate. One of these enemies was his own cousin Yahya that believed he should be the one people followed, even though he had done nothing to inspire them to, and he tried everything down to plotting to kill baha'u'llah. The other members that followed Mirza Hussein aka Baha'u'llah wanted to kill Yahya for he would do nothing but put everybody and himself in danger, Mirza continuously told them no even after one of Yahyas plots ended up killing one of Mirzas young sons, Abdul'baha grew up watching his father Baha'u'llah walk the walk even whilst these actions led to his brothers death and he himself was steadfast in this principle forevermore that there is no way to preserve yourself against ignorance if you become it yourself. We are eternal but we will be tested to the utmost degree to see if we really truly believe that and until we believe it no matter what then we will not experience its glory as a reality.
We have been taught that kindness is weakness and nothing could truly be further from the truth. When you pass from this body and you are sitting across from the holy parents of god they will only be concerned with when you could have been kinder, since you were granted this very experience for this very purpose, to practice the virtues of purity, kindness, patience, discipline, diligence and of course humility in the midst of all odds against you.Β Β
And most important of all to Once and for All let the Chariots of Aurora Roses of Love to REIGN freely within and END for all time the sponsorship of the shadow armies of treacherous lying Fear to mock inside, never again
LOve, Sania <3